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A bit of a catchup #mondayblogs

Published by Kai on November 27, 2023

I’m in the end phases of NanoWrimo, and while I’m going to scrape through and passed the 50k goal (I’ll probably get it today), it hasn’t been the best – for various reasons, both around the project, and not. The last post on this blog was just before everything – and I really do mean *everything* changed. I don’t actually know what happened. I’m told that a few days before everything tipped upside down for me. Basically, I woke up on that Thursday afternoon, and came down to talk to my partner. But I was confused. The house wasn’t right. It…

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Good news/bad news #mondayblogs #pennyforyourthoughts

Hurricane Lane, with its well-defined eye, was pictured as a category 4 storm

Good news/bad news #mondayblogs #pennyforyourthoughts

Published by Kai on October 18, 2023

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, and before I dive in, I want to say, this IS about writing. In it’s own way at least, but it’s a lot more about how serious something that looks innocuous can get to be. I’ve spent the last six years dipping in and out of anaemia. Due to a reason I’ve already written about (the book I’ll eventually re-release, with all the others, “I don’t want to wear incontinence pants”, which is basically about how bad it is for me when I get my period, and what I’ve found worked for…

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Where I was, where I am, where I’m going #Mondayblogs #ByKai #Rebrand

Where I was, where I am, where I’m going #Mondayblogs #ByKai #Rebrand

Published by Kai on October 3, 2023

Well…that was a bit longer than I meant it to be. Sorry about that. I went offline in July to try and get a bit of clarity on how to plan and merge down everything and while that project is still in progress…no, actually, is still in the beginning phases, I have good reason for it. A year ago this week, I was diagnosed as having issues with B12, foliate (which is important if you’re still trying to extend your family, which we are, but actually, is an important thing for memory, and nerve and muscle connectivity and all sorts…

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P is for Psychosis #realmentalhealth #mondayblogs #nomorestigma

P is for Psychosis #realmentalhealth #mondayblogs #nomorestigma

Published by Kai on April 20, 2023

This entry is part 20 of 22 in the series AtoZ 2023 - The AtoZ of Me

This is one of my harder blog posts to write, because though I talk – a lot – about the impact my mental health has on my day to day life, and has done for a while, I’m pretty sure that this is the bit no one really understands, causes the most…misunderstanding and I hope, because I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, they can’t relate to. If you didn’t know that psychosis was a feature of my mental health diagnosis, or didn’t understand if you’d heard it mentioned before now, please…don’t start changing your opinion of me. That’s the biggest reason those of us with serious mental health issues aren’t as open as society needs. Because we lose people.

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C is for C-PTSD

C is for C-PTSD

Published by Kai on April 4, 2023

This entry is part 6 of 22 in the series AtoZ 2023 - The AtoZ of Me

I’m doing two posts today – C for Cats, and C for CPTSD. In the early 2000’s, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I went through a period of needing medications, which sorta worked, sorta didn’t. By 2014, after losing a job I loved, I really didn’t have an easy time of it. It led to a lot of issues, eventually, with my mental health treatment and that’s a whole other story, but it also led to me being given to a team that finally decided I might have Complex PTSD. A definition of CPTSD (from an article on Bi-polarbears) Complex…

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L is for Ludosport (where I am tonight!) #atozchallenge

L is for Ludosport (where I am tonight!) #atozchallenge

Published by Kai on April 14, 2022

This entry is part 10 of 10 in the series Blogging From AtoZ 2022

So, the first thing I really should say is that Thursday, ten months a year, is training evening, when we all go see our friends and train. I’ll also be talking about Se.Cu.Ri, which is a core principle of Ludosport, and matches a lot of my outlooks in life. Se.Cu.Ri is Servizio, Cura, Rispetto, or, put another way, Service, Care, Respect. Which leads me to the second point I love about Ludosport. We learn a LOT of it in Italian. That’s not to say you need to speak Italian to join in, but the terms are a solid part of…

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D is for Dancing in the Rain #atoz2022

D is for Dancing in the Rain #atoz2022

Published by Kai on April 5, 2022

This entry is part 6 of 10 in the series Blogging From AtoZ 2022

I’ve spent the last year trying to think about how to explain the basic changes I’ve gone through in the last two years. And one of the major things that I’ve been thinking about is gratitude, and ‘dancing in the rain’. What is dancing in the rain? For me, it’s a core concept to living with what I do. It’s accepting that I’m not always going to be happy, that the skies aren’t always going to be ‘clear’ but even if they aren’t, I can go outside and ‘dance in the rain’. It’s a gratitute attitude, I guess. Dancing in…

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C is for #Covid #atoz2022 #mondayblogs #ukpolitics

C is for #Covid #atoz2022 #mondayblogs #ukpolitics

Published by Kai on April 4, 2022

This entry is part 5 of 10 in the series Blogging From AtoZ 2022

Like many millions of people, I’ve now had at least* one confirmed CV19 infection. Irony, as the UK released all restrictions and we learn to ‘live with Covid’, two of us caught it.And while it was mild, I’m still tired, I’m still recovering, and I once again remember why my doctors are cautious of me, and I can’t even think or wonder how others might be coping with this, or not. And I’m just thankful for vaccines. I’m actually thankful for a lot of stuff, which I want to talk about before I go after the government. Which I will…

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A 2021 retrospective…a bit late ;) #mondayblogs #yearinreview #lifetheuniverseandakitchensink

A 2021 retrospective…a bit late ;) #mondayblogs #yearinreview #lifetheuniverseandakitchensink

Published by Kai on January 3, 2022

Hi there guys. Normally, doing these, I do really try to get them up either as we’re travelling home on the21st December, but as everyone saw, I posted something else instead. So, I’ll do the retrospective today, and tomorrow we’ll do the ‘coming in 2022’. I got nothing done… I think the first thing to acknowledge is that personal goals wise, I’m not further visibly forward, but I did a lot of…I guess it’s ‘behind the scenes’ work. I did have a quieter, calmer year in some ways. Supporting the kids, supporting my partner, and trying to plan for what…

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When she sing, she sings “Come home” #mondayblogs #rungirlrun

When she sing, she sings “Come home” #mondayblogs #rungirlrun

Published by Kai on December 21, 2021

(Don’t Google that, if you plan to watch Loki, the TV series, as the titular character sings it). I’ve been equal parts restless, equal parts full of wanting to get on with changing things, but not having the energy to do any of it. So, as is my usual tactic, I’m actually travelling today. I’m going home.Tomorrow morning, I’ll be heading to my temple, called Goddess Falls. It’s known as another name in Edinburgh, but I’ll be taking my lightsaber with me in the morning. Travelling, thinking, going home We’re hoping that we get to go (so, either this’ll be…

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Two steps back, or gathering strength #Mondayblogs #selfcare #chronicillness

Two steps back, or gathering strength #Mondayblogs #selfcare #chronicillness

Published by Kai on October 18, 2021

One of the major mindset changes I’ve been trying to work on is not looking at any delays in my life as ‘delays’, and instead look at them as chances to… I guess, design my way around the things that others consider limitations, I guess. Today for example, I’m operating under the influence…of a migraine. Migraines are the bane of my life. Or one of them, at least. I live with several chronic conditions, but migraines are one of the few ones that stop me dead in my tracks. (Authors) living with chronic conditions I’m probably not preaching to the…

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Depression

Depression

Published by Kai on August 3, 2021

I’ve been on about three false starts for this post, this week. And I’ve tried to write and explain this feeling… this weight for years.It’s odd. I’m a writer. I should be able to explain this. But I’m depressed. It’s a hard time to write in the first place, and then, to write about how sad I am… I guess it makes sense that it’s hard to deal with. Depression just is Believe it or not…this is one of the millions of faces of depression. And it’s mine. That’s me on Saturday, after The UK Games Expo. My daughter and…

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