The blog of D Kai Wilson-Viola

Author, advocate, designer, mental health advocate and parent. 

And then she said….follow me :)

And then she said….follow me :)

I know, I know, I said yesterday I’d post something, but we filmed this, we filmed some other stuff, and then…well, other things got in the way, so we changed the order we did the vids in, and stuff.

I’m writing this from my bed today – I’m not having a great week already, but I’m sure it’ll get better ūüôā

So, today, I’m inviting you over to Authorinterrupted, which you, Constant Reader, may or may not know, is my ‘professional’ writer’s blog, but which, for a very long time last year was just ‘my blog’. ¬†I’m going to split off the personal posts and either mirror or redirect those to here.

For those of you asking how best to keep up with this instead of remembering where I left off the day before, if you go to ByKai, you should find that all the posts mirror there, though they may appear slightly out of synced order to when I post on Facebook to say there’s a new post live. ¬†But, also as requested, Kai’s Blog Page, or Kai’s Blogging Network as I prefer to call it, has started this week too! ¬†Exciting stuff.

So, without further ado, my promised freebie, and see you later, over on Authorinterrupted.com – let me know what you think!

If it’s not behaving here, I’m launching my own Youtube Channel too, so please join me over there, or on my page at Facebook, where I’ll load it direct!
([youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDMd_U4lGIw])

B is for…

B is for…

Well…B is for a lot of things actually. ¬†I’ll be doing ‘B is for Books’ over at¬†AlexandriaPublishingGroup¬†later today, but for now I wanted to touch on the books, and some other stuff that B is for.

In our house, B is for something we just can’t have yet. ¬†Not because we can’t afford it, or because we don’t want one – in fact, as long as I remain fairly successful as a freelancer, money really isn’t a problem, neither will be taking maternity leave.
And there, with that one word, you’ll know that I’m talking about babies. ¬†I’ll be doing a full post on it in ‘I is for infertility’, but I prefer the sound of babies to ‘infertility’, so there you go.

As I’m talking about this on my mostly personal blog, I’m going to say only this – it’s been one of the toughest things I’ve had to deal with in our relationship, so when Kushka died earlier last month, I think it just all got to me – not that I’d have grieved less if we’d had a baby – but she WAS our baby in many ways. ¬†And yep, we’ve got a pair of kitten(ish) cats now, who are slowly settling right in, but I’d still give anything to have my girl back. ¬†Even though I love the two new ones, Kush really was one in a billion.
But, we move on. ¬†Humans¬†perceive¬†time in odd ways – and I still cry looking at the photos, but there’s two new¬†bundles¬†of fun to snuggle, and I’m sure, given how spoiled and loved they are, adding a baby to that mix, if we ever manage it is going to be fine.

So, I can’t have babies right now – it’s not the end of the world, right? ¬†Well, no, actually in some ways it really is. ¬†I feel like a failure – not that we can’t¬†conceive¬†(oh, look, c is for knocked up), but because we can. ¬†My body just has a conniption, gives me all of the fun stuff that early pregnancy has ¬†–¬†exhaustion, nausea, throwing up, peeing like there’s no tomorrow, then, after about a week, if I’m lucky, I lose it.
If that weren’t traumatic enough, it’s my other half’s first baby. ¬†I have two children from a previous relationship, but wouldn’t you know, I’ve been in this one for nine years (twice as long as my relationship with the father of my children).

And also for…

B is also for¬†Iain Banks¬†– he and Dan Abbnett told me (separately, but in the same month) that if I didn’t write, it would be a crime, or sentiments to that effect – having lost several greats this year already (James Herbert, Dave Silva and¬†Rick Hautala) I’m really beginning to feel like I should be publishing, and be dammed with the rest of the stuff that occupies my life. ¬†I was 17 when they told me, half a lifetime ago.

B is for Bah.

My favorite word this month РCamp Nanowrimo is upon us.  You might want to hop on over to Author interrupted to find out about that one.

B is for bombtastic

Bit of a spoiler here, sorry guys, but after Glass Block launches (I hope on Friday), there will be some A-Z challenge posts appearing on DarknessPD. ¬†Items like E is for Elliot, M is for Morrigan, C is for Clones and B is for…well….bomb blasts.

ūüôā ¬†Ain’t I a stinker?

B is for Blogging

I’ve been asked what it is about me and blogs. ¬†I guess I’m not very good at explaining that, but I love keeping blogs. ¬†I mean…almost as much as I love reading and writing. ¬†I’m trying to rework my blogs though, so that they’re more regularly updated – alongside B is for Blogs, be is also for Bi-polarbears, the mental health advocate site I run which was 10 last month.

And finally….

B is for Books. ¬†I love books. ¬†Almost as much as I love my cats. ¬†I’m an avid reader – I’ve got a lovely Kindle, and an Ipad so I can read no matter what, and it’s something I really miss. ¬†I was going to start a film review blog later in the month, but i may add recommended book reviews to that too. ¬†Not that I’ll review books, but that I’ll recommend books with a review, on my terms :).

 

B is for…

How things play out – aka, why it’s taken nearly 11 years to publish Glass Block

I’m inches from publishing my first full-length novel under my own name, and I was going to kinda let it pass without comment, and then I thought ‘I think I wanna talk about this’.
The following is a bit¬†maudlin, a bit ‘ow, crossed legs’ for writers, a bit dumb luck and a bit scary really. ¬†So if you wanna skip it, I¬†understand.
But this is the story of Glass Block.

Where it all started

One evening, around October of 2003, which was about three months after I’d kicked my ex out, and just before the Nanowrimo in November, I was parked in my usual place, in the bath, and Elliot came to visit. ¬†I came back from that bath with seven stories to write, which I dutifully noted down in a private post on my Livejournal. ¬†And filed it for the Nanowrimo.
The Nanowrimo led to me meeting my beloved in a very roundabout way, but Elliot was stuck to me like glue.  In fact, in the first few months of our relationship, said now fiancee commented at least once that he was sharing me and was really quite scared (or pretended to be) when I told the merry-go-round story.  But Glass Block sat.  And sat.

Still hearing voices, three years later

(not to be flippant about hearing voices – I do have problems with what is considered psychosis as well, but if you can’t joke about it…)

So, Elliot’s book series expanded from seven to I think 21 in the years between meeting the other half and starting at Uni (including a house move – a really major one about err…400 miles south). ¬†That was 2007.
Meanwhile…

Glass Block went out to a press in 2005.  Press loved it.  Press closed.
Glass Block went to a senior editor at a really big publishing house. ¬†Was accepted. ¬†Imprint curtailed when editor left. ¬†Three year wait. ¬†At the time, I thought I’d find somewhere else (in 2008). ¬†Oooops.
Glass Block got rewritten and went to another house.  House closed.
In that time I ghostwrote other stuff. ¬†I watched those books do stuff. ¬†I worked with people. ¬†I moved into non-fiction. ¬†I went to Uni and did a degree (where, critically, I just solidified how I used voice – I got so much from that course, and I’ll be forever grateful). ¬†Last house that took it, I got a tiny advance, and then three weeks later, the owner was killed in an accident.

So, I went self-publishing.

You’d think the litany…

Would end? ¬†Nope. ¬†So far, the book has been pirated before it was released, and made me rewrite it again, I’ve been in my first ever car accident and damaged my shoulder so badly that I couldn’t write, and most recently, the server we were on was hacked the week I took off to finish up. ¬†Normally, I’d back off after that and leave the book alone, then take another run at it, but Elliot’s been wandering around singing songs, and niggling at 4am, so here I am, at t-6 days, telling people the horror story that is my attempt to publish the book I adore more than anything else in my literary world.
Book outline swelled to 30 then stalled. ¬†And I thought that was it, till a really innocent comment by one of my university tutors…It currently stands at 59, and I suspect most of my sci-fi (the ones planned anyway) have something to do with the computer system I talk about in the books, in which case, it’s more like close to 100 books in one universe.

Whatcha think?  Would you have given in or be even more determined to get the book out?
(wanna know more about the book?  )

B is for…

Insidious lies in the Indie community

We¬†interrupt¬†your regularly scheduled fluff for a bit of a rant. ¬†And I wouldn’t be doing this during Nanowrimo season, but it *really* needs to be said.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the word ‘Dystopolitics’. ¬†And my idea of Dystopolitics is actually linked to my own books, but it goes beyond that. ¬†The politics of dystopia, right now, is pretty much looking at stuff like ‘A Handmaid’s tale’ and going, oooh, we’ll make sure our political views never get that radical.

And you know, the politics of dystopia. ¬†The radicalness….it’s seeping into everything going on around us. ¬†I’m days from a graduation ceremony I never though I’d make. ¬†I’m getting a 2:1 and I couldn’t be happier. ¬†But I’ve found myself in a community of radicals that many refer to as entitled, and I just look at and think ‘You’d be so much happier if the world wasn’t actually democracy, because that’s what you’re campaigning for.’. ¬†And you know, that cuold be a horrible thing to think about people, but when they say what I’ve heard lately, I think you’d question whether then understand free speech, a scale of awards, and the rights of others….let me give you an example….

I’ve been reading a lot of ‘I don’t need to worry about grammar and editing, all that matters is I’m writing’ or ‘you’re jealous because your book isn’t out yet’, or ‘would YOU accept a C from your kids if they came home with it on the report? ¬†Then why accept a three star review?’.
All of this has kicked off since I started working as an editor – and a lot of it comes out when people discover that it’s going to cost money to edit their books.
There’s two insidious lies I’d like to address today. ¬†It’s getting a bit dystopolitical in here if I’m honest. ¬†As in, this is the politics of dystopia. ¬†The politics of not doing what we’re actually experincing. ¬†And that’s wrong.
First – ¬†Editing and grammar ain’t important. ¬†O’rhyleah? (sorry, been looking at lots ¬†of Lolthulu lately). ¬†Seriously? ¬†Would I have gotten away with that in a very post ironic way on my degree, or, would my tutor have kicked me from here to next week about run on sentences, and the occasional tense mistake? ¬†I think I’d have been kicked. ¬†I know I would have been – in fact, I was.
So, while I don’t agree with the idea that we need to be locked to rules (and I’ll talk about that more a bit later) if you’re not at least flirting with the acceptance that¬†mistakes¬†aren’t acceptable, then you’re not a professional writer.

There – I said it – it’s not the¬†idea¬†that you can’t afford to hire an editor that doesn’t make you a professional writer – it’s the idea that you can excuse your¬†behavior¬†by HIDING BEHIND not being able to afford a professional editor.
Can’t afford an editor? – I’m writing a book, and I teach classes – check them out.

The other insidious lie is that we’re not all on the same side as writers and readers. ¬†And while that’s true, in some cases (you can’t be ‘on the same side’ if you’re buying something from someone), when it comes to literature, readers and writers ARE on the same side. ¬†We all want good literature, and the best stories.

So – there’s a second element to all of this:

If you are charging for your work, you have an obligation Рa paid service provision Р to be professional.

Again, I said it. ¬†If you’re going to publish your work – and people are paying you – for heavens sake, act like a professional. ¬†That goes beyond the presentation of your work, but in the end, that’s all that matters to your reader.
Picking up where I left off and why the site has been quiet

Picking up where I left off and why the site has been quiet

Alpha Xi Delta Welcome Back Rock 8.25.10
Image by Writing On The Mall via Flickr

Ok, I know, I’m supposed to blog more than once a week, once a month, once in a blue moon, but it’s been kinda hectic lately. ¬†I’m still getting used to lots of things, but basically, since my last posting, I’ve sorted out my gap year funding for Uni, have handed in several essays to support my gap year, then even started back to my +1 year.¬†

It’s been mad here – the youngest has changed schools – again – to a specialist unit.¬† The eldest tried out for grammar school.¬† My partner still loves his job, I founded an entirely new company, doing the same stuff (writing!), and for the first time in my life, came off incapacity benifit.¬† I’ll probably talk more about that whole fun experience later (and I mean fun in the exciting sense, not the sarcastic :D)

Other than that – I’m still slowly expanding my library of ‘I wrote this, I really should share’.¬† Slo-o-o-w-l-y, but faithful readers will know that this is the time of year that this changes.

Yep – it’s NANO time!¬† Woooohoooo!

I’m so excited.¬† So there should be more posts, from this blog and others about how cool things are going to get.
It’s good – great – to be back.

Free Chapter – Glass Block

Free Chapter – Glass Block

Iridium fountain pen nib, macro.
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And he’s the free chapter from Glass Block – let me know what you think, and whether you like it or not. ¬†Interested, not interested, I’d love to hear your views!

Glass Block free prologue

Glass Block Blurb

Sometimes games and reality shows just shouldn’t be revived – Elliot Peters, detective at Quadrant A, Downtown Darkness knows this best. ¬†When he’s plunged into a nightmare game show, he begins to realise that the religious element of the city might just be finally making their move and it’s a race against time to stop the release of a deadly virus that four of the prisoners had been carrying.

Available for Pre order July ’10.