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P for Psychosis #Mondayblogs

P for Psychosis #Mondayblogs

Published by Kai on April 18, 2024

I know that a lot of you won’t like this post. I know that for those of you that are used to the neutral(ish) tone I’ve been told I sometimes employ, this will be hard to read. And I know if you know me personally, this might just expose a few things that you didn’t know about me. But, painfully blunt, incredibly transparent is who and what I am. It’s important to be honest about this stuff because I don’t like what I see for the actual portrayal of Psychosis in the media, and honestly, with the new ‘Three Body…

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M is for Meditation #MondayBlogs

M is for Meditation #MondayBlogs

Published by Kai on April 15, 2024

M is for Meditation I’ve always found that meditation is something that comes sorta easily to me.  Well, kinda. My brain still does the whole ‘chasing ideas into the flow of information thing’ instead of letting them go sometimes, and sometimes, I’m really bad at objectively labelling thinking and feeling thoughts, but, I’ve found, overall, that meditation is great for me. The thing is, it wasn’t always that way. It started, I guess, when the whole trend of working on meditations was something that was rolled out in the UK.  I’ve been through the mental health system a couple of…

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M is for Mourning

M is for Mourning

Published by Kai on April 15, 2024

Every year I get to the AtoZ and think about whether I should talk about losing friends, and every year I’ve decided that I won’t do it. And even this year, even though my writing is often dedicated to friends, even though my words are built around the things I do and know, so losing people – my friends and family – obviously changes how I see things and what I’ve talked about in my books.But, if I’m honest, I’m still a bit reluctant to open up old wounds. But…last night, I lost another friend and so, I thought I’d…

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L is for Ludosport (what else?) #AtoZ

L is for Ludosport (what else?) #AtoZ

Published by Kai on April 13, 2024

I’ve talked A LOT about LudoSport, and I’m entirely unapologetic about that.LudoSport is one of the best places I’ve ever discovered – an amazing community, an incredible group of people, great exercise and my mental health has been always better since starting with them. I think the last major post I did about LudoSport, before I had issues in October was the excitement about being under 100kgs for the first time in years, and about to go do a daggers course. I did the daggers course. I got sick soon after. So, if you’d like to know about the sport,…

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I is for ‘I am, I feel…’

I is for ‘I am, I feel…’

Published by Kai on April 10, 2024

Me and my inspirations, I’m guessing people might have expected ‘Inspiration’.Instead, I’m talking about who I am now, and how I manage my feelings.I will be talking about Psychosis over at Bi-polarbears, along with CPTSD, because I live with both, along with ANXIETY in all capitals.The three of them are part of who I am. They shape and sometimes shame or highlight every interaction I have with people. It took me a long time to grow up, as a person. In fact, I know I didn’t start any ‘real’ growth until the last few years.Firstly, I *am* a mother. I…

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E is for environment #AtoZ2024

E is for environment #AtoZ2024

Published by Kai on April 5, 2024

I thought I’d write about something today that influences me directly and indirectly, and that’s my environment.The first thing I need to say is that no matter what I say about my environment, I actually don’t like it when it’s messy. Doesn’t change I’m a messy person, but I don’t like it when it’s messy, if I’m entirely honest. Which often leaves me wit a quandary. Do I tidy or do I work?Lately, we’ve been really lucky, because we had our kitchen remodelled so the house had to be reorganised to let that happen – we removed all of our…

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C is for Challenging

C is for Challenging

Published by Kai on April 3, 2024

I kinda feel like I could write this on any blog – here, Bi-polarbears (I did C for C-PTSD instead) or Typing a Blank.  But in this case, I’m just writing here.The last six months have been challenging. From dealing with illness, to trying to restart everything I’ve worked on and even work out what it is, but I don’t really feel like I’m back on top of it.And for someone with CPTSD, it’s been difficult for another reason. How do you handle it when people know you but you don’t know them? It’s been really surreal to be in…

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A bit of a catchup #mondayblogs

A bit of a catchup #mondayblogs

Published by Kai on November 27, 2023

I’m in the end phases of NanoWrimo, and while I’m going to scrape through and passed the 50k goal (I’ll probably get it today), it hasn’t been the best – for various reasons, both around the project, and not. The last post on this blog was just before everything – and I really do mean *everything* changed.  I don’t actually know what happened.  I’m told that a few days before everything tipped upside down for me. Basically, I woke up on that Thursday afternoon, and came down to talk to my partner. But I was confused.  The house wasn’t right. It…

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Good news/bad news #mondayblogs #pennyforyourthoughtsHurricane Lane, with its well-defined eye, was pictured as a category 4 storm

Good news/bad news #mondayblogs #pennyforyourthoughts

Published by Kai on October 18, 2023

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, and before I dive in, I want to say, this IS about writing. In it’s own way at least, but it’s a lot more about how serious something that looks innocuous can get to be. I’ve spent the last six years dipping in and out of anaemia. Due to a reason I’ve already written about (the book I’ll eventually re-release, with all the others, “I don’t want to wear incontinence pants”, which is basically about how bad it is for me when I get my period, and what I’ve found worked for…

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Where I was, where I am, where I’m going #Mondayblogs #ByKai #Rebrand

Where I was, where I am, where I’m going #Mondayblogs #ByKai #Rebrand

Published by Kai on October 3, 2023

Well…that was a bit longer than I meant it to be. Sorry about that. I went offline in July to try and get a bit of clarity on how to plan and merge down everything and while that project is still in progress…no, actually, is still in the beginning phases, I have good reason for it. A year ago this week, I was diagnosed as having issues with B12, foliate (which is important if you’re still trying to extend your family, which we are, but actually, is an important thing for memory, and nerve and muscle connectivity and all sorts…

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Changes afoot #MondayBlogs #Kaiyearofchange

Changes afoot #MondayBlogs #Kaiyearofchange

Published by Kai on July 11, 2023

You might have wondered where I went after the AtoZ. I didn’t even really finish that, but the truth is, I’ve been working on changing *waves at everything around me* in a very piecemeal way in the last couple of years, and having spent a whole YEAR in limbo of ‘should I do this, could I do that,’, I finally pulled the cord, hit the detonation button, pulled down walls, slegehammered a pile of crap… And ended up, after all that, facing down the fact that (a) I said this in 2018, when my adopted sister died, only to be…

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P is for Psychosis #realmentalhealth #mondayblogs #nomorestigma

P is for Psychosis #realmentalhealth #mondayblogs #nomorestigma

Published by Kai on April 20, 2023

This is one of my harder blog posts to write, because though I talk – a lot – about the impact my mental health has on my day to day life, and has done for a while, I’m pretty sure that this is the bit no one really understands, causes the most…misunderstanding and I hope, because I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, they can’t relate to. If you didn’t know that psychosis was a feature of my mental health diagnosis, or didn’t understand if you’d heard it mentioned before now, please…don’t start changing your opinion of me. That’s the biggest reason those of us with serious mental health issues aren’t as open as society needs. Because we lose people.

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