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When all you wanna do is pillow fort but you have to ‘adult’unrecognizable person sleeping under blanket

When all you wanna do is pillow fort but you have to ‘adult’

Published by Kai on June 14, 2021

I know this is an odd concept to raise for someone that’s a business owner and often works as hard as I do to advocate for others, who has raised two children to adulthood and when I think about it, survive what could be seen as serious negligence by my older psych team, but sometimes, do you wish you didn’t have to ‘adult?’ Adulting is overrated I don’t mean by this that I don’t think I should have zero responsiblities. I’m just really tired of not getting ‘a win’ in the things that I do, not really. All of my…

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A day in the disordered #atozchallenge

A day in the disordered #atozchallenge

Published by Kai on April 5, 2021

(again, as this is backdated, I’m writing this with the benefit of hindsight). I did actually have this rather neat post about ‘a day in the life’, but, the last few days led to a bit of an epiphany. You know there’s an Instagram bubble? I think when we write ‘days in the life’ that we sometimes make ‘blog bubbles’. So, instead of talking about what my ideal day should look like, and what it does when I’ve planned it out, I’m going to write about what my day actually is. And for the first time, I’m even going to…

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C is for Can do #atozchallenge

C is for Can do #atozchallenge

Published by Kai on April 3, 2021

(backdated, sorry I was late! It does mean I get to use pretty photos I got on Sunday though!) Do or do not. There is no try. Yoda, “The Empire Strikes Back” Well, sort of.I’m actually more of the ‘if at first you don’t succeed, try, try again,” which is another truism I believe in.But, when it comes to my mental health, I can’t make excuses. I have to keep healthy boundaries, and work hard. There is no ‘try’ at living after all. But it’s not easy… The thing about trying to have a ‘can do’ attitude, in the context…

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A for ‘are we there yet?’ #atozchallenge

Published by Kai on April 1, 2021

Late start to the AtoZ I know, but I’ve had work and other stuff to deal with today.I think the title of this might give you an insight into me, more than anything else. I’m not… exactly … a patient person. I love to know where we’re going, what we’re doing, and be there.I do not do well with waits. Waiting is anathema to me in fact. My impatience is so bad that I’ve actually made up games just to get through hard meetings. I think part of it is because I’m anxious (which I’ll mention later), but part of…

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The radical changes I need to make #Mondayblogs #Wedswriters

The radical changes I need to make #Mondayblogs #Wedswriters

Published by Kai on September 5, 2016

So, I was a bit quiet about it, but I went on holiday for two weeks in the middle of August.  I spent the last two weeks battering around a pile of theme parks – Disney, Universal, Blizzard Beach (One of Disney’s waterparks), plus Nasa, Gatorland, the Florida Mall, Denny’s, IHOP… we did so much that I’m spending so much time just exploring my experiences and filing them away carefully.  My memory being what it is, I’ve also got about a gazillion photos that we all took – me, David, his mom, his sister, the kids. I’ll talk about that…

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And then she said….follow me :)

And then she said….follow me :)

Published by Kai on June 28, 2016

I know, I know, I said yesterday I’d post something, but we filmed this, we filmed some other stuff, and then…well, other things got in the way, so we changed the order we did the vids in, and stuff. I’m writing this from my bed today – I’m not having a great week already, but I’m sure it’ll get better 🙂 So, today, I’m inviting you over to Authorinterrupted, which you, Constant Reader, may or may not know, is my ‘professional’ writer’s blog, but which, for a very long time last year was just ‘my blog’.  I’m going to split…

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Uh….ooops?

Uh….ooops?

Published by Kai on June 26, 2016

Have you ever wondered why people blog? I have.  I think about it every day, to find the reason that I’m blogging.  A problem though, and a bit of a hiccup to it all is that if I’m not careful, I start trying to justify why I spend time. Spend is right actually. Blogging, and time most specifically, is a sort of currency for me.  As is social media, and everything else I do.  But I think what I mean by that is TIME is a currency that I struggle to decide how to spend.  Blogging seems to be something…

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New Year…sorta….

Published by Kai on January 6, 2014

Yeah, I know, its six days into the New Year and I still haven’t done the promised blog here about how this coming year might look.  And that’s because I’m still not sure.  I was working out of the house between September and November (should have been December but I fell in work and gave myself the most impressive concussion I’ve ever had, therefore finished up a bit early).  I’m now back out of work, and looking for a new job because it was only temp and I was good with that. Plans for my writing The New year didn’t…

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#Cybercamp – the personal stuff and an overview

Published by Kai on September 3, 2013

Right.  First up.   If you’re really not interested in ‘the feels’ of things (sorry, bad internet slangy thing), this post probably isn’t for you and I’m totally ok with you skipping it.  This DOES NOT contain much about the actual cybercamp itself – more about the stuff I learned about me.  It’s most likely not useful to anyone, other than me, but because people were asking me why I was sad, day two, I thought I better get this written up.  I’m totally fine with you skipping this one and hitting Steampunkdragonfly (my new cyber/sec/policy blog – though, right…

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I keep saying… Tomorrow will be different

I keep saying… Tomorrow will be different

Published by Kai on May 11, 2013

First up. the rumors of my demise are greatly overstated. I had a bit of a hospital adventure, which I’ll explain later in the post, but I’m not too bad. Photo proof too, aren’t you lucky 😉 I’ve been getting really good at procrastinating. Oh, I’ll tell myself it’s because there’s only so much I can do in a day, and I do achieve something…but. Normally, but works in my favor  It’s what I say to justify falling behind on my own work. It’s what I say to comfort myself when there’s nothing else to say. But… I mean – client work is…

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How things play out – aka, why it’s taken nearly 11 years to publish Glass Block

Published by Kai on February 20, 2013

I’m inches from publishing my first full-length novel under my own name, and I was going to kinda let it pass without comment, and then I thought ‘I think I wanna talk about this’.
The following is a bit maudlin, a bit ‘ow, crossed legs’ for writers, a bit dumb luck and a bit scary really.  So if you wanna skip it, I understand.
But this is the story of Glass Block.

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Who am I?

Published by Kai on October 5, 2011

Cricket asked this and at first, I thought, ah, well, that’s easy. I’m tech support.  I’m a writer.  I’m an extremely clever woman.  I’m a graduate of Creative Writing. I’m a mother.  I’m the woman that’s dating one of the most amazing men in the world, bar none.  I’m close friend to people that I can’t mention by name, because my privacy and theirs is worth more than the street cred it might get me. But that’s all very ‘external’ and perception based. So, I tried to go a little deeper.  My name isn’t Kai, but it’s what everyone bar…

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