A is for Actually/Abundance

Blogging from AtoZ 2024

• AtoZ Challenge 2024
• Gettting ready to AtoZ
• A is for Actually/Abundance
• B is for boo…. Brilliant things
• B is for Bad Idea Bears
• C is for Challenging
• D is for Dark #AtoZ2024
• E is for environment #AtoZ2024
• E is for Editing
• F is for Finders Keepers
• F is for Family and Friends
• G for Groups – AtoZ 2024 #MondayBlogs
• G is for ‘Only the Gods are Real’
• H is for Home
• I is for ‘I am, I feel…’
• J is for Jump (a poem)
• K is for Killing #AtoZ
• L is for Ludosport (what else?) #AtoZ
• M is for (e)motionless
• M is for Mourning
• M is for Meditation #MondayBlogs
• M is for Magic
• N is for normal
• N is for November
• O is for Outer Space
• P for Psychosis #Mondayblogs
• Q for quotables
• R for reality
• S is for singing and other music
• T is for Time and Travel
• U is for Understanding
• V is for Via
• W is for Wishes
• X is for Xray and other medical stuff
• Y is for Yesterday
• Z is for Zebras and ZZZZs
• And…that’s it – An AtoZ Rounup

I said I was only doing one AtoZ, but I fibbed.
As this is about me and the things that inspire me, I’ll be bouncing around on a few of my blogs and doing additional ‘letters’ along with short posts like this on Kaiberie.com.
Today is ‘A is for Actually’…

I’m an advocate for a lot of things, and last year, I picked up another one. I have something called Status Migrainosus, which is something that I’ve discovered is pretty rare. It’s estimated that about 3.1 billion people have experienced one or more migraines in their lifetime (WHO) Based on various reports, that comes out at 692.6 to 1,528.4 cases per 100,000, (NCBI.NLM). I’ll talk more about it in M for Migraine and S for Status Migrainosus, (obviously, these links won’t work yet, but they will at the end of the month! ) but the stats on Status Migrainosus comes in at somewhere around 26.60 per 100,000., but today’s ‘A is for Actually’ is A is for ‘At the beginning over at Typing a blank‘.

As these posts about me and how I’ve managed and where I pull inspiration, I feel like I should be talking about all of it.

A is also for ‘Abundance’ which is my post for today.

October turned into a horrible month for me, and during my last Nanowrimo, while I was dealing with memory loss etc (I haven’t *really* talked about that, but I will.  I have over at Typing a Blank), I realised that I was falling back into ways I didn’t like.  I couldn’t see the positive, I fixated on the negative.  I got upset a lot. So, over the last month or so, I’ve been working on Abundant thinking, and Gratitude.

I know many people will look at this and roll their eyes, and I know others are absolutely sold on the idea of manifesting what you want and need by the power of positive thought, but I wanted to talk a bit about my experience of abundance, and why I think it actually works.

It’s easy to say that Abundance is (x, y, z) but really, all it is, in my view at least, is looking for opportunities, and being more positive and open, so you can see them, interact with them, and be more approachable.  I can’t explain how people ‘manifest’ great book releases, but I can explain how I got that job, or was made LoreKeeper.  I asked, pleasantly, and kindly, and it was given to me because I was projecting the right level of calm and kind. Honestly, I think that’s how I end up with most of my volunteer positions.  That and the MUM VOICE ™ 🙂

 The biggest thing I’ve learned about (all of that stuff, including abundance) is that the more positive you are, the easier it is to overcome  or work through obstacles, the more spoons you have because you’re not fighting your own…inertia or shortcomings, and you’re giving yourself a chance to just be.  I think, often, we are our own worst enemies – we nit-pick, criticise and panic over the smallest of things, when that’s not what people see. And that’s where I fall down when thinking abundantly.  And I know putting this out there, given what I’m talking about seems a bit backwards, but it’ll be fine.

My biggest problem with ‘abundance’ as a concept is I never *quite* feel deserving of it.  I understand that we put out into the world how others interact with us, and all we’re capable of doing is changing our own behaviour and all of that, but, I’ve still got a lot of healing and a lot of work to do. And that makes abundant thinking hard, especially when you’ve got a…voice that talks to you all the time telling you that you’re not worth it.
The reason I’m saying this is because I think sometimes that people are hard on themselves because they think they’re doing everything right, when, really, while they are, they’re still not quite in the right place for what they want. I can’t help but feel grateful for everything I have – I mean, after all, I get to do all of the fun things that I do, but at the same time, I’ve also got to acknowledge the bit of me that isn’t ready for whatever I’m chasing yet.  The bit that needs healed.  The bit that’s not quite aligned.  It’s not anything you can actively change, but is something that you might want to think about and work on. Because just because things aren’t great right now, doesn’t mean they never will be. And I keep needing to remind myself of that too.

So. What do you think? How do you feel about me jumping around my different blogs as well as doing a post here? How about Abundance?
Comment below and let me know and please check out the rest of my posts!

The Current posts in my AtoZ challenge are:

T is for Time and Travel

Visit other blogs from the AtoZ challenge!
My other posts are listed at The AtoZ of me and my inspirations

No visits today – I’m asking that you read my post, P for Psychosis.

Kai( Kai Viola, Author )

Kai is a writer, author and avid reader.  A mental health advocate, Ludosport athlete and coder. She’s the mother of two young adults, owned by two cats, and lives with her beloved in the Cotswolds.